So as we ended 2020 we had another government announcement about COVID-19 and in our area we entered Tier 4 and I had to close my cosmetic clinic AGAIN!
I was so upset, frustrated and angry as I’d worked hard to keep my patients safe and the clinic sterile between them, but mainly this was my business! My only source of income, the only way to pay my bills, treat my girls and help my oldest out at University and keep my beloved horses. I’d got a diary full of people I would have to contact and Re arrange and no way of telling them when for.
Now don’t get me wrong I’m one of the lucky ones as I have another half a husband who luckily still has a job and can keep the roof over our heads. The other stuff relies on my income including food shopping, gas and electric.
My initial reaction
One of my personality traits is struggling to accept things I do not like! Now this isn’t necessarily always a bad thing, but in this case it was something I was powerless to change, even so, I total meltdown, a cry an angry rant and a day of sulking! I knew I could not carry this in to the new year as my mood and general demeanour was not only feeling terrible, but affecting my family as well. So something had to change!
A lesson in acceptance
So the problem was I didn’t want to ‘accept’ the fact that my clinic had to close again! I was trying to psychologically fight that fact.
1 Don’t take it too personally
Despite hating it and feeling angry and fed up I had to look at it as a fact of life which was not personal it wasn’t just me it is also the millions of others who had businesses they had to close. I was not alone.
2 Things could be worse
Only one of my close family has tested positive with COVID it was my precious oldest daughter and thankfully she didn’t have many symptoms and thank god is well and safe. Some people have lost loved ones and have been extremely poorly.
As I mentioned I have a husband so again I’m not alone and he luckily still has a job and business which thankfully hasn’t been affected so we as a family still have an income.
3 Nothing lasts forever
The Tier review is in 2 weeks this could change its not permanent.
In 5 years time will I remember this? Possibly not. Who really knows what is around the corner?
4 Acceptance doesn’t mean you have to have to be ok with it
We have all struggled in some way during this pandemic, missing loved ones, not being able to go out and just carry on ‘normal’ life.
Just because you accept something allow yourself to be feel emotions, I had my cry and rant and at the time I needed to release those emotions, I was fed up I was scared of losing my business and being unable to pay bills. Let yourself have feelings no matter how bad, positive and negative emotions are normal.
5 Try and find a different focus or a positive
Some businesses will get a grant for having to close based on income from certain years, I will apply for that again to pay the clinic rent.
Just in case I don’t get it I have looked at applying for jobs and thankfully I have earnings from my essential oil business www.wildorangeessentialoil.com I will have more time time to work on this and build it up.
I should have been back at work when my youngest goes back to school, now I can use the time at home to catch up on the washing, cleaning and the crown! Lol!
6 Practice gratitude
For all of the above I have to look at the things to be grateful for. My 2 beautiful healthy happy daughters, my husband me his support both emotionally and financial. The fact that I hopefully still have a business to go back to. The roof over our heads, food in the cupboards, our health our families health and our relationships. There is so much more than this and it really does help put things into perspective.